There have been sign all around me this week that my mom is right here with me. Signs everywhere.
The past three days that I’ve come home there has been a beautiful cardinal on Michael’s truck when I pull in the drive.
I was completely full of worry and doubt this evening when something unexpected took the weight off my shoulders. It made me sad. It made me wonder if I should ever be happy about it. In the end it is completely her way of being here with me and helping me rid the worry.
Then my sister sends me a text telling me I need to download a new song….by Pink called “Beam Me Up” and it speaks every feeling I have about missing her.
It’s her. Even if it’s through my sister. It’s her.
Can I just be beamed up to see her again? A place where nothing breaks and nothing hurts. I just need a minute. Not sure what I’d say to her at all. No idea. Just beam me up.
“Let me lighter I’m tired of being a fighter”
“There are times I feel a shiver and cold. It only happens when I’m on my own. That’s how you tell me I’m not alone.”
“Happy just to be there holding your face.”
“So when I need you can I send you a sign? I’ll burn a candle and turn off the lights. I’ll pick a star and watch you shine.”
What I wouldn’t give to just beam me up….
Thankful for signs all around,
If you’ve ever lost someone you love….I highly recommend downloading the song. Give yourself a box of Kleenex and some time alone and just have a good cry.