38 weeks

Yesterday marked 38 weeks of baking for Easton. This momma is ready for him to come any day now. 
He’s the size of 

Or
Or a 
Yesterday was the last day of teaching for me. I had originally planned on working 2 days before my due date. Now I know that 38 weeks is long enough and I give mad props to any momma that can work longer than that. Just walking from my car to my classroom at the beginning and end of each day was exhausting. I knew on Monday when my doctor said it could be any day and possibly end of this week or weekend that I wanted to wrap things up ASAP. We had a few crazy days at work of insane schedules that I wanted to try and get my cherubs through and then I would feel better leaving them. Yesterday I stayed after 3 hours and finished every last little detail and walked out at 5 pm ready to leave it all behind and focus on me and E for the next few months. I know March 28th will be here before I know it and I will be back to work and my baby boy will be growing like a weed before my eyes. 
I enjoyed getting sweet gifts from my little cherubs and a nice surprise from a coworker on my last day. 

Right now I just want to live in the moment and enjoy it all. 
This week has been overwhelmed with sadness for loved ones and ones I don’t even know losing momma’s to cancer, in childbirth, and crazy violence. My heart has just been broken for all of them. It causes this soon to be momma so much sadness and worry. I’ve been on prayer overload.  I’ve been missing my own mom more than the usual….which is a LOT right now. 

Momma’s are simply irreplaceable. There’s so much I wish I could tell her. Every week when we leave our doctors appointments I feel I have no one to call. I know many friends or my sister or aunt would hear from me but the real person I want to be able to call is my mom. Then I cry and whine alone thinking life just isn’t fair. 

My loved ones who lost their own momma too soon this week are an amazing family. Their mom was one of a kind. She loved all and gave all of herself on a daily basis. She leaves behind one hell of a legacy to be proud of. I think that makes it even harder to lose her. 
It’s always the void in your heart that causes the most pain. Some days that void is huge….holidays, birthdays, special moments. Then you get lucky and other days it’s barely there. Then you realize that void isn’t there and you feel bad. Like you’ve moved on without them. It’s like a constant pull on your heart. Back and forth. 
I only wish to those who’ve lost their mom this week that they find comfort in the thought of Heaven. It gets me through every day. Knowing I will see her again. I think Easton is with her now waiting to meet all of us. He’s a lucky dude hanging with his Mamaw until it’s time to make his debut to us. 
Heaven is what gets me through. 

37 weeks

We’ve made it to 37 weeks! Easton is full term and I’m about fully ready to have him. 
He’s the size of a
L
Or a
Or the odd one
I found this “Stages of Pregnancy” this week on Facebook and couldn’t agree more. 
The trouble is..I thought I wa peeing a lot a month ago. I had no idea it could be even more frequent! If I stand up, I have to go. If I cough, I have to go. 
If I breathe, I have to go. 
The hubs and I took advantage of the perfect Halloween costume….a pregnant nun and a priest. I’m sure this offends some but it’s all in good fun. Lord, bless our baby!
We had a doctors appointment on Monday and got to see Easton. His cheeks are chubby. His belly is chubby. His lips are pouty and I seriously can’t wait to meet him. 
Found out I’m dilated to 1 cm and it could be any day! It could also be a while. So, every move I make or pain I feel I start to panic that I’m going into labor. My sweet man has never missed an appointment and I know that makes me a lucky girl. He even became an adult this week and made a couple of appointments of his own, including some vaccinations he needs and a check up on himself. 
He always makes sure to love on our exceptionally lazy, overwhelmed pooch, Shiloh. She’s been one hot mess lately. In our faces. Acting like she’s about to be replaced or something. 
1 year anniversary with Nerium this week! Love this stuff. Wouldn’t sell it if I didn’t. Seriously love what it does to take care of my skin and how freaking simple it is to use. One little bottle in my bathroom and one step each night. I see so many other competing companies and can’t imagine having to add shelving in my bathroom just for all those products!
Today my class celebrated with me and threw me a baby shower. 
Cutest shower ever. 
They guessed how many m&ms in a baby bottle. They tried to figure out how much streamer it would take to go around my belly. Some were nicer than others! They made me an advice book with a silly picture of Easton. Their advice is priceless and wonderful. We had pizza and cupcakes and they had so much fun. They all chipped in to get me a gift card and I feel so blessed! I’m going to be sad to leave them. I knew it would be hard but they’ve made it even harder because they are such an amazing class!
I have complete faith they will stay incredible while I’m gone and be prepped and ready for my return in late March. 
Probably the highlight of my day Was hearing about a baby gift arrival…..our umbrella stroller and swing. Love getting gifts in the mail from amazing friends!
Even better is that the FedEx guy who dropped off the swing asked Mike if he was going to be a first time GRANDPA. A  grandpa?!?! 
Hahahahahahaha!
Oh I wish I could have been there to see my sweet husbands face. I would have gladly told the delivery driver that those grey hairs that cover his chin and the bald head….those things are from being married to me. 
Ha!
So fortunate, 
Ashley

36 weeks

This is starting to really fly by. 

And I heard the song today “You’re Gonna Miss This” and bawled like a baby. I do that a lot. 
Alone. 
In my car. 
I am going to miss this. Right now Easton is safe inside and even though I can’t sleep and feel like I’m going crazy…I’m going to miss this. 
Today he’s the size of 
Or a
I use to love my cabbage patch dolls! Still probably have one somewhere! I’ll probably sneak one in for E despite what his dad says. Boys can play with baby dolls, right?
This week leading up to 36 involved more nesting. This time it was expensive but so well worth it. One of my Pinterest pins suggested stocking up on household items to avoid, or try to avoid, going out once baby arrives. 
We made a trip to Sam’s Club and dropped a pretty penny. We spent quite a bit of time price comparing things. We went with the cheap wipes and will hope for the best. I quickly learned there is no way I could have done that trip without him like I had originally planned too. It doesn’t help that I’ve come down with a cold or bronchitis (doctor tomorrow) but I still could not have managed that trip without my wonderful man. 

We made one more trip on that sexy romantic Friday date night, my personal favorite and his arch nemesis….Target. 
Before Target we stopped to have dinner at O’Charley’s where I learned for the first time….I don’t fit into booths at restaurants anymore. So depressing but not at all embarrassing. I’m growing a human people!
We celebrated my Aunt’s retirement and ran some more errands on Saturday and scored this extremely cute vest. 
And then the sickness came on. A little runny nose. Then a cough. Now I have the nastiest cough with a sore throat from all the coughing and its 6:30 and I’m in bed. I’ve tried ever OTC drug I’m allowed to have and nothing is cutting it. I’m hoping for some relief tomorrow after a trip to the doctor. 
This week I was also blessed with another wonderful shower at work. Thank you all for everything! Check out this super cute cake. 
Had a nice visit holding my grandma’s hand and chatting about loving a farmer. Alzheimer’s might occasionally take her memory but nothing will ever take that woman’s soul and heart. For once she didn’t ridicule me on being knocked up and saying “Well are you at least married?” 🙂 This time she simply asked where my husband was. When I told her he was busy working on farm equipment that made her smile. We talked about husbands loving farming and she brought up some fond memories of my grandpa who I miss daily. She spoke as if he were still around and it hurts to know that her moments of time recognition are slipping away. I never correct her. Just let her life in whatever moment she chooses to be in for a bit. 
For a moment it was like I was 15 again and we were sitting in her kitchen on a sunny afternoon. I love the moments when she feels right there with me. The next moment she was back to worrying about the storm and rain outside and nervous. But we had that moment. 
She asked about the baby and how in the world we knew it was a boy. She made it clear she wasn’t real fond of his name. I don’t think it’s one she has ever heard and it definitely threw her off. 
We talked about me bringing Easton to meet her in a month or so and she said she couldn’t wait to meet him. I know we are so lucky that his Great Grandma will get to hold him, love him, and brag about him. Everyone in her unit loves kids and babies so I’m sure he will be a hit. 
These days are all flying by so fast. 
I hope whatever moment you choose to live in you do just that…..live. 
Live and love all those around you. 
We could all probably slow down a little and enjoy life and it’s moments. 

Showered with Love

We’ve been so blessed and showered with love from so many. 




First we had a little gathering with the husbands family and Easton received so many wonderful gifts. 



Michael learning to read again 🙂 

Cutest diaper cake ever full of green and yellow John Deere favorites!


Aunt Theresa

Aunt Jan and Jessica

The Scotts and Reeds!

Aunt Terri

Cousin Melissa

The Grandma to Be and Daddy to Be

Grandma’s best friends

The whole gang! 


Thank you to everyone in hubby’s family for a wonderful shower!



A few weeks later my sister and best friends got together to throw a huge shower full of family and friends.  They went all out!

My favorite Joyce cookies! 

Pictures of both of us as babies

Each table worked on Easton’s first alphabet book.  Can’t wait to read it!

My gift givers

Reading these advice cards was hilarious and emotional for me.
Loved it!

A cake to match his bedding. 

My sister bought this and it will make the perfect cake topper for all his future birthdays!

Family

Friends that are family!

Friends

Piles and piles of presets.  Oh my!

Two of my favorite ladies….one who is very shy!

Family In Laws!

Aunts and Cousins!

Aunts and my favorite mentor teacher!

Friends!

I love my best friend, Meg!

Little Miss Kynsey

Brody’s belly hugs are the best but I sure do miss being able to pick him up!

Grandma visited this shower too!

Love these girls

My favorite niece, Shailynn!

Sweet baby Jack, Easton’s cousin, was tuckered out most of the time.  

My audience for gifts was quite hilarious!  Lots of helpers.  

A very special blanket passed down from grandchild to grandchild with a special touch from mom’s best friend, Patty. 

A special sign from cousin Codi!

This crew pulled off an amazing shower!  I am so blessed! 

These two.
Don’t know what I would do without them.  

Sisters.
Best friends.

Momma Patty

Brody loves to be in pictures!

Mamaw Sandy

Jeffer’s party rocked!

Aunt Holly

Aunt Cathy and Aunt Beth


THANK YOU to everyone who was able to come and even those who couldn’t make it.  It was a busy time of year, especially for so many of my farming families.  I appreciate each and every one of you more than you’ll ever know.  I left feeling oh so blessed that Easton is coming into this world welcomed by some amazing women (and their families) and already so loved.

You’ll never know how much all of you mean to me and how you get me through each day.

Love to all!

35 weeks

P5 weeks to go

5 weeks of panic and uncertainty and EXCITEMENT!
This weeks he’s about the size of a 
Or a 
In the last week we have….
Had a sleepover with 2 of the littles in E’s room. I know these will be harder to have in just a few weeks as we make adjustments to an entirely new life!  I soaked it all in and loved every minute. Especially the bath time. I can’t wait to have bath time every night with my own sweet one. 
We took Miss Shiloh to the vet and the groomer. It was her first time ever to the groomer and she was less than thrilled that they sent her home with a beautiful bandana. Her fur felt so wonderful. Her nails were beautifully trimmed. Her ears and teeth cleaned. She’s ready to meet her baby brother. 
We finished his room! 
I returned to work from fall break. I accomplished so much at work in two days of my break but still came back to these massive to do lists. Conquering a little at a time and doing the best I can!
We attended a breastfeeding class. Super informative and a wonderful instructor that I hope to see again as a lactation consultant when we deliver. A great video to help illustrate proper latch and hold techniques and answered a ton of my questions.  As we left I said, “Well that’s probably the most boobs you’ve seen in a while.” To which my loving husband responded, “It’s the most boobs I’ve ever seen in my life!”
Ya right!  He isn’t fooling me. But the thought and sentiment is sweet. 
We discussed how long I would like to breastfeed on the way home and I’m shooting for a year hoping to be successful. I know the hardest part will be returning to work and finding time and a place to pump during our busy school day. I’m sure I can figure it out! I’m definitely glad we attended. 
The film I practiced with cracked me up with his shirt….
We also learned that Shiloh does spend some of her day in Easton’s room grabbing blankets to cuddle with. She’s a blanket hoarder and likes to take them from anywhere in the house and move them to where she prefers to lay. It’s something she’s started doing in the last year. I won’t complain because it is way better than eating trash or eating the new couch. 
Back to work means swollen feet. I try to stay off them but it’s really hard with my job. Unfortunately I’m limited to these slippers, those super attractive fake Ugg boots that the ladies love and men hate, and flip flops. 
I still can’t believe how fast this pregnancy has flown. It’s very exciting and nerve wracking at the same time!
As I loom forward to the holidays I know these holidays will be the best yet. We will have our own little family to celebrate and share traditions with. My sweet hubs has always been supportive of holiday traditions and making memories and I can’t wait to see the excitement in his eyes when we get to share it all with Easton. 
Truly fortunate!

34 Weeks

Easton is 34 weeks along today. 

He’s the size of a cabbage
Or a basketball hoop? 

We’ve had a very busy week getting to this point.  

Easton’s Unkie Josh got married last week so Easton officially gained a new aunt.  This momma tried wearing normal shoes but ended up in house slippers by the end of the night.  This whole shoes thing and swollen feet is really depressing. I love fall weather and my boots and only one pair fits comfortably and those are the ones that look like Uggs. 
Me and the hubs got a little slow dancing in but it wasn’t as comfortable as it use to be. My belly sure gets in the way of a lot of things!
Check out those cankles. Sexy, huh?
Love spending my Saturday mornings watching this girl and Kynsey on the volleyball court. They both are loving the game and they’ve grown so much this season. 

We thought now was probably the best time to get maternity photos done with cousin Codi.  So we traveled to Bloomington and Sniloh met a new friend, Nash.  We got Shiloh in a few shots and while she’s not the most cooperative photographic canine…she’s probably not the worst either. We took pictures at an old limestone mill.  What an amazing location!
Can’t wait to see all the shots!
I’ve had MANY sleepless nights. Which is sad considering I’m on fall break.  I should be getting loads of sleep, but I can’t. 
Sleepless nights = one crying, crazy pregnant lady
Feel sorry for my sweet husband.  He typically bears the brunt of it.  When I do lay in bed I start on my left side unless I need to see the TV and Easton always hangs out on my left side. As you can see my belly is often lopsided. 
At our doctors appointment on Monday my doctor advised me to take Tylenol PM. I literally cried when she gave me the “all clear”. Since then it has helped….a little. It’s just so hard to get comfortable.  Then when I do get comfortable I have to pee. Then when I have to get up and pee it’s painful to move.  Then the anxiety sets in when I try and fall back asleep. I’m anxious about everything that’s about to happen. I’m excited, but anxious. 
I’ve spent so much of my fall break working on the anxiety. Trying to keep myself busy and feel “ready” for what’s about to happen. 
I’ve been crafting for his room.  Shopping for some necessities we don’t have yet. 
This particular craft saved us about $55
On Etsy I found these cute prints for his room…
But instead of dropping $65 I decided to get some canvases and paint my own little farm animals. 
I’ve enjoyed fall break and I am NOT ready to return on Monday.  I’ve spent 2 days of my break at school making lesson plans for now through Christmas Break. This has me fully prepared for a maternity leave sub and makes me feel a lot better about the next 6 weeks before my due date. 
We spent a little time at the Children’s Museum getting some things ready for an upcoming field trip with my school cherubs. 
The littles got to meet the TMNT and Easton had his first carousel ride.  Seeing me get up and down from that carousel horse must have been a real treat for the others at the museum.  

Overall I truly can’t believe it’s already been 34 weeks. It has flown by and although I’m uncomfortable and a bit sleepy, I’d like it to slow down a little because I know life is seriously about to change….big time. 

So much has already changed and I can’t believe we are nearing the end. 
I’ve got swollen hands and not able to put my wedding ring back on after a massage today. 
He’s having hiccups at least 2-3 times a day and it’s the neatest feeling ever. 
It took everything I had in me to make the bed today after washing all the bedding.  Complete exhaustion.  What has happened? 
I waddle more than walk and I’m going to miss my ponytails and yoga pants when I return to work.  
I guess on the bright side of things, going back to work is just the next step closer to meeting my baby. I still can’t believe I’m having a baby!

Little Man’s Room

Here’s a peek inside our little man’s room….
Before….it was dark and dreary and empty….
During…
And After…..
And a new dresser from The Marshmallow Monkey in Franklin…
I had wanted to paint it red or blue but once it was in the room the white vintage look was perfect with the barn wood crib!
The fan before…..
And a new fan after….
Added a shelf to his closet for more space and all those little clothes!

Took an old bookshelf….

And the hubby made it match the dresser…
And after!!!!
My sister made the banner as a decoration for my shower but I couldn’t resist using it for E’s room. It’s adorable and even the little ties are tractors and match perfectly with his bedding. 
Speaking of bedding…
All of the bedding was specially made from a lady on Etsy. I had so much trouble finding a nursery bedding I liked in a regular store. I’m so glad I found someone who could make just what I was dreaming of and even more blessed my sister took the reigns in setting it up so that it was all purchased from my family and friends and I didn’t need to worry about a thing!

The canvases are something I made as an idea from Etsy and a way to save some money. I found the prints for $65
And decided I could probably find the images online, cut them out carefully, and trace around them with pencil on a canvas.  
Then I found paint to match the tractor fabric in his bedding and painted around the image I had traced. 
It cost me around $8 total at Hobby Lobby when the canvases were on sale.  

We added some gray “black out” curtains behind the valances just for those moments the sun is still out and I can trick my sweet baby into thinking it’s night time. 
A special place for photos to change out and a very special sign painted by my cousin, Codi, made from barn wood from a grandparents old barn. Also special!  The little tractor on the crate was something from my husbands room when he was a little boy and I just found that out today. So glad we held on to that because it works perfectly in Easton’s room. 
Something my mom and I always use to say back and forth and back and forth was “love you more” and I love this homemade sign by my friend, Michelle.  It goes perfectly over this jam packed closet full of overwhelmingly cute clothes. 
Here’s a close up of the pictures I have hanging so far and the wire tractor.  I especially enjoy the love notes from his cousins and have one more to hang that I just remembered. The littles are always making him things, especially Brody. He’s all about creating books and projects and cards and always has something to give me. I’m so sentimental and that stuff goes straight to my heart and is kept forever. I figure when he graduates high school and I can make him an album of everything he’s ever made me. And who knows, this may be a phase and they may be the only special things he makes me!
The sign Codi made was another idea from Pinterest and Etsy, but again….so expensive. I’m so glad she made it special because it has a much better story. 
My sister also had this little piece handmade and it says “Diggin’ since 2015” 
It will make the perfect cake topper for all of his birthdays.  He’s a super lucky boy to have an aunt who has impeccable shopping tendencies and is practically the best gift giver in the world!
We took an old bookshelf and the hubs painted it white with chalk paint to match the dresser.  It holds all the amazing books his friends and family have purchased and his momma and poppa will enjoy reading to him. The baskets will eventually hold more goodies (love these baskets from Target). 
The old ladder I purchased from a friend and it holds all of our special blankets.  Blankets that were Mikey’s baby blankets. A blanket that my mom had started and has been passed down to each of her grandchildren with a special touch by her best friend. A blanket made by mom’s best friend that is the softest thing in the world! A special sign stating the bible verse that is so near and dear to my heart and kept me going when it felt like I was never going to get pregnant (I was so impatient) “For this child I have prayed”
The baby monitor is set up and ready to go and a ruler to mark all of Easton and his siblings heights as they grow throughout life. 
His room is ready to go and now if I could get my emotions in check and calm down a bit I might be ready too. Anxiety is real. My emotions are running a rampage and sleepless nights are the name of the game for this chic because I simply can’t turn my brain off.  I’m so stressed. I’m so worried. I want everything to be perfect in a situation that I already know won’t be (and that’s ok) and I cannot stop stressing. 
We are less than 6 weeks away from little man’s arrival and I’m fairly certain that besides picking up a breast pump, buying bottles, and a few other little things…we are completely ready. Birth plan typed up. Hospital bag checklist typed. Bags beginning to be packed. 
Willi I ever feel ready for all of this?
Probably not. 
For now I’ll just sit in his nursery and try to keep calm. I’ll enjoy all the hard work my husband has put into this one little room. I’ll admire his dedication to this sweet angel we’ve always wanted and never met. It’s all going to be alright. It’s going to be perfect for us. The two of us will become three and this family we’ve always wanted together will finally become the real deal. He tells me everything is going to be fine and somewhere deep in my heart I know he’s right and I thank God he’s mine because he is most definitely my better half and I don’t know what in the world I would do without him. 

A Family Addition

Today’s the day! The day my brother says “I Do” and the day I gain a sister-in-law. The day my nephew gains a mom. The day our family grows by one. The day an angel smiles from above knowing all her children have found love, happiness, and forever. 

He will always be my brother, but he’s went from dad to husband in the blink of an eye. 
I have so many fond memories growing up. Some are a bit painful considering the torment and torture he loved to inflict upon me being your typical older brother. He use to tell me I was adopted. He use to scare me through our adjoining closet doors by pretending to be the beast, Vincent. I lost my first tooth biting him..I’m sure a bit of a revenge for something.  
These were some of those sweeter moments our parents captured. 
I love these pictures. We may not have been super close in age but I’ve always looked up to him. Always will. 
He’s wise and brilliant. He’s strong and tough. He’s a lovely combination of our sweet mother and caring father. He has an ornery grin that always reminds me of my grandpa. He’s a damn hard worker. 

For many years I’ve hope and wished my brother could find true love. Someone to spend the rest of his life with. Someone to complete his little family. Someone to build on to his family with. I’m so happy he’s found that with her. 
I can’t wait to celebrate them in just a few short hours. 
Love you both. 

33 weeks

Easton is 33 weeks along today and things are going great!

He’s the size of a 
Or a 
A ferret?
This app is so weird. It does make me laugh though!
I love that the littles always want to see the app and how big Easton is. 
It’s fall break and I am in full blown nesting mode. Just in the first 4 days of this week I have gotten so much accomplished. It feels really good and I still have a long list to tackle before I go back to work. It’s crazy to think that once I go back we could possibly only have 6 weeks or so before he arrives! Of course that’s if he hangs in there until his due date and I have this feeling he won’t. 
My husband has also been tackling so much. Like….
Getting the car seat and stroller put together. 
And the pack n play 
The nursery is almost done. Just a few things to hang on the wall! 
I’m going to save nursery pics for later. 
Here’s kind of a sneak peak with the littles and their camp out last night. Another reason I love fall break is more time with them! 
Cuddles with this boy too. He loves to rest his arm on my belly and Easton usually kicks at him. 
My to do list for the next few days consists of celebrating my brother’s wedding, organizing the kitchen to make room for bottles and baby stuff, writing up a birth plan, and packing a hospital bag. 
Oh….and naps any and every day I want. 
Because it’s fall break!

32 weeks

This week went MUCH better than last week. MUCH!

We are 32 weeks along and he’s around the size of a
Or a 

We had an appointment Monday. Just a regularly scheduled appointment plus an ultrasound to check the status of my partial placenta previa. We high fived when she told us the placenta had moved and we were no longer previa status!  Yay! No more “pelvic rest.”
Buuuuut his measurements. Oh my. 
Right now this boy is measuring big. 
A head measuring at 33-35 weeks and 94th%ile in weight. This boy is give or take 4 pounds and 9 oz. I’m leaning towards the “take” part. I’m hoping he continues to grow into a healthy baby but at a steady rate. The thought of birthing a 10 pound baby is a bit scary. 
Forgot to mention class last week. We had loads of fun (sarcasm) practicing birthing positions and breathing techniques. All I could think was 1) I’m not gonna remember any of this when the time comes and 2) if I can’t get down and out of these positions at 31 weeks I’m fairly certain I won’t be able to closer to 40 weeks. It was real nice when we got to the position where we both had to get on the floor. I’m sure the whole class enjoyed watching us get up! Nearly impossible! I think most of those positions are for gals opting out of an epidural….and that’s not this chic. My opinion – God made someone smart enough to create an epidural. Why would I deny myself of that creation? There’s one chic in or class who says she is going without. I applaud her. I’d also like to do a follow up and see how well that worked for her….but I won’t. 
This weeks class we discussed medication options (yay!), C section, and took a tour of the maternity ward. It is scary to watch an epidural be administered (via video) and listening to possible side effects of all options. It is for sure scary. It still didn’t change my mind though!  We had the chance to take a look at forceps, vacuums, and other possible devices used to get the little cherubs out. I would hope none of that is necessary, including the C Section. However, I’m smart enough to also know that whatever is the safest way to get Easton out is OK with me!  As for the maternity ward, we felt like experts having just spent 8 hours there the week prior. 
We have one more week of classes to
wrap it up and I’m in full nesting mode for fall break!